Changes

I've learned that becoming a parent is very hard. It's not because it's a lot of work, it's because of having to say goodbye to different stages of your child's life.

I weaned Jaxon from the boob this week. It was a decision I was very comfortable with until today. Ron and Jax took off on a day in the Bronco and I was left here, alone, not being needed by anyone. It really has been a rough day. He's doing fine without the breast but I'm not sure I was ready.

I don't even know why people have kids. This is hard!!!! I can't imagine saying goodbye to my baby and saying hello to my toddler....Or saying goodbye to my toddler and hello to my kid...then kid to teenager, THEN the worst and most dreaded of it...saying goodbye to my teenager and saying hello to my adult!!! How in the crap am I going to handle him flying the coop and going off on his own when I am having such a difficult time with him not needing me to nourish his body anymore.



He was a few days old in this picture and it makes me sad to see it. I don't want him to grow up. It's a hard pill to swallow that it's incredibly inevitable. There is no doubt that I will be so proud of every stage of his life but this is harder than I thought it was going to be...this parenting thing, I mean.