Monday, May 18, 2009

I'm lost.

I really want to do something for myself. I would love to go back to school but I have problems with the thought of putting Jaxon in child care. I think child care is great for children, it's just my own hang ups of finding a provider that I trust with him.

I know that I will find my way to a career, it's just so frustrating. It always comes back to finding good child care.

I'm so discouraged as a whole right now. Ugh. If I would have just acted right when I went to school the first time, I would be totally done by now. I've wasted so much time.

Friday, May 15, 2009


We are slated to be in Colorado at the beginning of July. The movers will be here on June 29th and I can't wait. I am looking forward to not having to pack or move a thing! What I am even more excited about is leaving Texas. Colorado is great and I can't wait to be there but I really just want to leave Texas.

This time of year is so gross to me. The HUGE flies come out, it gets humid and it's just unfavorable all around. It will be a change to leave this Texas summer and go to the Colorado summer, I hear they're drastically different.

Anyways, thinking back to this time last year...I was pregnant, Ron was deployed and I was just getting through each day. I told Ron the other day that last year seems so unreal to me. My pregnancy was exciting but I didn't have anyone to share it with so it just seemed like something that was happening. I barely even remember it because I was never just overjoyed about it. My goal everyday was to drink enough water. It's kind of sad actually and I'm glad that it's over.

Fast forward to today, Jaxon is laying on the floor trying to figure out the whole crawling thing while Ron is at work. We're so glad to have him stateside. He is so good with Jaxon, it's very cute. He's a goofy dad which I think Jaxon will appreciate as he grows a bit older.

Speaking of having Ron stateside, I'm not looking forward to the NEXT deployment. There is a great possibility that he will be going to Afghanistan at some point in late 2010 or early 2011. I will be moving back to Memphis at that point. Ron and I have agreed that Jaxon will be at an age that he will need to be around his boy cousins and his uncles. Jaxon will be without his dad, the least I can do is provide him with some great men in his life. Not to mention, I will be able to be close to my family and that will make this next deployment so much easier. Afghanistan scares me to no end, it's much...rougher...than Iraq is. However, I try to keep those thoughts at bay for the time being. I need to focus on having him home.

This December, we are going with all of our family to DISNEY WORLD!!!!!!!! We are very excited to be able to participate in this little family reunion. I can't believe Jaxon will be toddling around Disney World...he will be so big. :(

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Ron says...

That I don't update our blog enough...

Consider it updated, bud!

Jaxon Maddox Swain

  • 6 month check-up 5/4/2009
  • 17 lbs 9 oz
  • 26 inches long
  • Measuring right on the 50th percentile mark